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5 Years on with Stage 4 Melanoma – How Life has Changed

May is Melanoma Awareness Month

Five years ago at the end of March, I received the devastating news that my melanoma had spread to my brain and I would need immunotherapy treatment. I remember the day very clearly and my head going into a complete tailspin as I realised the enormity of what I was being told and questioned whether I was going to survive the next 3 months.  I didn’t really process anything I was being told about the treatment and I left the consultation in shock. Fortunately my husband David was with me and had managed to take in more of the detail. The immunotherapy treatment (ipilimumab and nivolumab) that has contributed to me still being here has been a game changer for extending the lives of advanced melanoma patients, began a few days later, for anyone who wants to read more about my full melanoma story is available here

Cancer anniversaries are a reminder of how long I have been living with incurable cancer not something that is necessarily to be celebrated. However I have been incredibly fortunate to have benefitted from the huge advancements in treatments for advanced melanoma and without these and the incredible care I receive from my second home The Royal Marsden I would without doubt not still be here writing this today.  Too many patients however don’t respond to these treatments highlighting the huge need to continue funding melanoma research to continue developing new treatments and stop patients continuing to lose their lives to this awful disease.

I was back at the Marsden in late March for my latest scans and all went smoothly at the hospital. The day after the scans I started to feel ill with a bad headache, blocked up nose and I was really tired. The next day I felt worse so I did a COVID test and it was positive.  I registered it with the NHS app and contacted the medical team at Marsden HQ to find out if I should continue taking my drugs. I was told by my Oncologist to continue on the medication as long as my symptoms remained mild. I didn’t feel great the next day but it was just like having a bad cold. On Friday, 2 days after I had tested positive the GP called to check in how I was doing and also to let me know they were referring me to the St George’s COVID team to check if I needed to have the antiviral drugs which were being given to the vulnerable. On Saturday, I had a call from St Georges and they went through a series of questions with me. By this point I was feeling slightly better but the doctor said he wanted me to speak to the respiratory consultant. On Sunday, the respiratory consultant called me and we went through more questions and in conclusion he decided that based on my feedback I didn’t need the antiviral drugs. I was impressed that the COVID response had kicked in and it did take me back to the start of the pandemic when my Oncologist advised that it was highly likely that I would get the virus at some point but it would be better to get it later rather than sooner as they would likely develop drugs to treat it which obviously they now have with the vaccines.  I was due into the Marsden on Monday for my scan results and to see my Oncologist but on Sunday eve I was still testing positive so I contacted my medical team and said I think its best I have a phone consultation.  At 8am on Monday morning my phone rang and it was Prof Larkin to tell me that my scans were good, 3 more months of drugs were being prescribed and it was happy days. I was so delighted 5 years on from being told that the melanoma had spread to the brain and as always it’s a huge thank you to the amazing melanoma team at the Royal Marsden especially Prof Larkin and my CNS Nikki Hunter who have been there with me all the way.

In the last couple of months, there has been much sad news on the melanoma support group that I am a member of and we have lost many special people.  One lady in particular I used to message some times as we had a similar love of the Scottish islands and I met her at a patient lunch a few years ago Susannah Archer who died of stage 4 melanoma a couple of months ago. It all happened very suddenly as she had run out of treatment options and was on a trial. She was always answering questions of other patients even although she was going through a lot herself and I learned a lot from her about educating myself about melanoma, not being afraid to question my medical team and advocating for myself. She was also a very talented wildlife photographer and her photographs were very calming.  David and I will be going to the Outer Hebrides shortly and she loved the Isle of Harris so will have a toast to her when we are there and think of her husband and son.    

This reinforces how quickly things can change and makes me determined to keep focused on the Team Shomelanoma fundraising for melanoma research at The Royal Marsden.  I am delighted to announce that the next big fundraising challenge for Team Shomelanoma is the Toubkal trek in Morroco, North Africa’s highest mountain which we will be taking on in September 2022. This will be a tough challenge as we will be climbing in the heat of the Atlas mountains and Mount Toubkal is not to be underestimated at 4,167m. Team Shomelanoma has 16 hikers signed up and training is kicking off shortly. A huge thank you to everyone who has signed up and we are looking forward to another challenging adventure raising funds for the fantastic melanoma research team at the Royal Marsden. More to come on this challenge and how you can support the team in the next blog.

As COVID restrictions have lifted Dave and I were lucky to get away for a mini break to Madrid over Easter. It really is a beautiful city and we had a fabulous long weekend exploring all that the city had to offer. It was the first weekend of warm weather of the year and we could easily identify the Brits in the city. With temperatures in the low 20’s the Spanish were still wandering around in their winter wear whereas you could spot the Brits a mile off in their shorts and vest tops displaying as much skin as possible to get a tan. As we enter May – Melanoma Awareness Month and go on the raising awareness of skin cancer, this is just a reminder to do a skin check once a month and report any changes to your GP or dermatologist.  Melanoma UK has an excellent checklist and I recommend reading through this, I would hate for anyone else to go through the experience of this awful disease just because they wanted to have a tan.

We are coming up to conference season and with COVID restrictions lifting we will once again be having in person conferences this year. I am looking forward to the Melanoma Patient Conference in June and my Oncologist Prof Larkin is giving a lecture on immunotherapy at the Royal Society of Medicine that I am planning to attend. There are many new and exciting advances taking place in treatment of melanoma and this week my Oncologist did an update for Melanoma UK, which provided an excellent update for patients on the latest treatment developments. Here is the short video for those of you that may be interested

Thank you as always for all of your support, with the 5 year milestone passed it is onto the next one, while living life still very much in the present and treasuring every day ( and being very glad to still be here) I am closing this blog remembering the lovely Susannah Archer.     

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Staying Alive with Melanoma Research

One month into 2022, 4 years on my current drug regime I was back onto the cancer treadmill with a bad case of Jan, Scanxiety.  It is a new year and I was back at my second home Marsden HQ for my 3 monthly scans. The time seems to pass so quickly between scans, you have just passed go had some freedom some time to try and put the cancer to the back of your mind and it rears it’s ugly head. Don’t get me wrong, I am massively grateful to still be here 5 years on and the reason for that is due to the huge advances that have taken place in drug treatment for advanced melanoma, 10 years ago it is highly unlikely someone with my stage 4 melanoma would still be here.  Sometimes, I just long for that freedom of life before cancer not being beholden to the ongoing worry of is the cancer growing again. 

I was hoping for an uneventful scan visit and I had my blood tests first and then arrived for my scans. My veins are not great; 5 years of regular prodding and only being able to use the right arm, as I have no lymph nodes in my left arm doesn’t help matters. Anyway as they tried to cannulate me for the scans my veins would not play ball and it took 5 attempts to get the cannula in which made it quite stressful. Whilst this was happening there was an emergency inpatient case on a ventilator who needed an urgent scan whom I walked past and was clearly very ill. I am just not good in these situations and began to feel very queasy as if I was going to pass out. I think it just brought home how cancer is such an awful disease with the ability to destroy so many lives. Anyway I got myself together and the radiography staff are always amazing in helping keep you calm and I was able to get through my scans and get home.  A few days later I was back the hospital to get my results and was delighted to hear that my scan results are good and I can continue to get on with living my life.

Of course as I am the two-cancer queen and whilst the melanoma has always presented the highest risk, the breast cancer also has to be managed. For the last year, I have been taking tamoxifen to control the breast cancer and that has worked in reducing the tumour that appeared in my right breast a year ago to the point where it now looks normal.  I have been having 3 monthly ultrasounds to monitor this and on Thursday this week it was back to the Marsden for the latest ultrasound and also my annual mammogram. I sometimes have a nightmare that all of this time worrying about the melanoma, it will be the breast cancer that comes to haunt me and this was making me feel nervous for this week’s appointment.  I had my mammogram first followed by the ultrasound and the radiographer told me that everything was looking good there was no evidence of the tumour and the tamoxifen was still working. I then saw my doctor and she confirmed that the scans and mammogram looked good and I didn’t need to go back to see her for 6 months. I left the hospital feeling happy and exhausted.  The mental effects on dealing with living with cancer are very real and everyone deals with it differently, there is no right or wrong way, I definitely slept better on Thursday eve after receiving my results and feel hugely grateful to the incredible teams at the Marsden.

Back in  early November,  we were beyond delighted as the Team Shomelanoma Fundraising reached £75,000, which is fantastic news after Phil Hines and Adrian Baker completed 26 miles on the Thames Path. Both of them had been signed up earlier in the year to do the Giants Causeway but had got COVID so been unable to join us. Dave and I joined them for half of the walk and it was a gorgeous afternoon.  A huge thank you to both of them and everyone who has joined the challenges and supported all of the fundraising activities, these have kept me going, created goals to work toward whilst creating a lot of special memories with wonderful family and friends so a heartfelt thank you to all of you.

In late November, I felt very excited to be invited back to the Francis Crick Institute in London to meet with Dr Ben Shum and Dr Samra Turajilic to discuss the latest updates on the melanoma research projects that the funding we have been raising is going towards.  Dr Turajilic leads the Cancer Dynamics Laboratory at the Francis Crick Institute  ( ) as well as working as a Medical Oncologist for the Melanoma and Renal team at The Royal Marsden with Professor Larkin.  Dr Ben Shum is  a Clinical Research Fellow at the Royal Marsden and currently undertaking melanoma research at The Crick Institute.  

As you know, I have been fortunate to benefit from both immunotherapy and targeted therapy for my stage 4 melanoma. But 50% of stage 4 patients do not respond to immunotherapy and normally targeted therapy works on average for 12 months. (I am an outlier in that it has worked for 4 years), As such whilst there has been much progress made in treatments there is still so much more to extend and save more lives.

One particular area of unmet need is Uveal melanoma, which occurs when melanoma develops in the eye. It behaves very differently to skin melanoma and immunotherapy treatment does not work for the majority of patients. Some of you may recall our friend Robin passed away from Uveal melanoma 4 years ago after he had run out of treatment options so I was very excited to hear about this exciting new treatment for Uveal melanoma that the team had been involved in. Dr Shum provided the following research update :

There has been a newly published clinical trial for metastatic uveal melanoma for a treatment called tebentafusp, which has been the first treatment to improve survival in decades. This study included patients 378 patients who were HLA-A*02:01–positive (approximately 45% of persons in the United States and Europe) who did not previously receive any systemic therapy for metastatic uveal melanoma. The results show that on average, patients on tebentafusp survived for 21.7 months, compared with 16 months in those who had a different treatment. 

This is a very exciting landmark step, because previously there was no standard treatment for metastatic uveal melanoma. This new treatment is in the process of being funded by the NHS, however early patient access programmes are now being set up. New clinical trials are also in the process of being set up to investigate the potential role of administering tebentafusp after resection of high risk uveal melanoma (in the adjuvant, rather than the metastatic setting).

The PEACE (Posthumous Evaluation of Adanced Cancer Environment) study is a post-mortem study of cancer patients who have kindly donated their bodies to cancer research. The generosity of these patients have provided us with a unique opportunity to investigate and understand more about all subtypes of metastatic melanoma. At post mortem, we sample many sites of disease, including many that would not be possible to sample during life. This allows us to investigate mechanisms of treatment response and resistance to treatments such as immunotherapy and targeted therapy.

The PEACE study includes 9 patients with metastatic uveal melanoma, and includes some patients who were enrolled in the tebentafusp clinical trial and benefitted from this new drug. In the lab, we are analysing how this drug might improve the immune system response to overcome uveal melanoma through sequencing the cancer genes and examining the tumours closely under the microscope. In particular, we are looking at how the tumour interacts with its microenvironment, of immune and other cells. We hypothesise that tebentafusp may be effective in bringing immune cells to the tumour cells, to help them recognise and overcome the tumour, and this effect may last beyond the duration of the treatment. We are also studying patients with other melanoma subtypes and are very excited to publish this research soon.

It was a wonderful afternoon and thank you to both Dr Turajilic and Dr Shum for spending the time with me. It really brings to life the wonderful research that is being done and how it then translates into the clinic to impact treatment of melanoma patients.  

We are now planning the next fundraising challenges and there will be a full update in the next blog. If you would like to take part in your own fundraising challenge please get in touch and let me know.

Before Christmas I was finally able to have my 50th birthday celebrations with friends and family. It was a gorgeous evening and felt very special to have everyone together and see them in person after the last two years dominated by COVID. We also had a lovely family Xmas and New Year in Essex and Scotland.

After my recent scan results we also made it out to Chatel in France for a long weekend of skiing with gorgeous friends Jen and Paul, her sister Jill and Rick plus their Dad Norrie. We had so much fun, it felt amazing to be back in the snow covered mountains after 2 years and we belly ached with laughter, it was honestly one of the best weekends I have had in a very long time we loved every minute.

On that note, enjoy every day, live life to the max and check your skin regularly. Report any concerns to your GP or Dermatologist , early detection saves lives.

I’ll be back soon with more Shomelanoma adventures. 

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Frequent Flyer at Marsden HQ – Walking the Cancer Tightrope 

As a marketer I am used to writing attention grabbing headlines, but in this case it’s strange dreams that that have prompted me to question, are the wonder drugs still working?  It’s also usually a sign that scans are fast approaching. Of course I always have everything crossed that my wonder drugs continue to work and I haven’t arrived at my sell by date ( they work on average for 12/14 months) and I have been on them almost 4 years. That may sound dramatic but as most fellow stage 4 cancer patients know you are only as good as your latest scan and sometimes the whole process of living in the window of the next 2-3 months feels exhausting.

I have been quiet on the blog front for the last 3 months but am back with a big update and the last 3 weeks have been particularly busy on the medical front after a quiet summer. At the end of September,  David and I escaped for a week to Lefkada (Greece) more of that later. I knew that when I got back there were a slew of medical appointments awaiting that I had tried to put at the back of my mind. October arrived and I was back at Marsden HQ for my latest melanoma scans.  A lot of my medical appointments over the last 18 months have been remote (obviously you have to go into the hospital for scans) but I prefer getting my results in person from my doctor. I used to have monthly phone consultations but since the summer I prefer just going in for a face-to-face appointment every 3 months when I get my scan results too. If I feel any issues in the meantime I contact my team and they arrange for it to be investigated. This gives me breathing time where I try not to think about the cancer, get on with living my life and I find it helps my mental health.  I have also been on my melanoma drugs almost 4 years so my body is used to them and I haven’t been experiencing much in the way of side effects. I turned up for my scan results 2 weeks ago to be told that everything was good on the melanoma front so I felt happy about that but the scan had detected a cyst on my ovary. Of course with the frequency of scanning I have it is not surprising that other things may be picked up. My Oncologist told me that this was not his area of expertise but if I wanted it investigated he could refer me to the gynecologist for follow up. As I had my breast cancer follow up scheduled the following week I decided to discuss it with my doctor then. I left my appointment feeling happy that the melanoma was still under control, but there was a nagging doubt concerning the ovarian cyst. I did feel better after speaking to some girlfriends and understanding that it was quite common.

Last week I was back at the Marsden for my breast cancer check up. I had an ultrasound and follow up appointment to check that the tamoxifen I have been taking is still effective. Fortunately that was all good but my doctor agreed that the ovarian cyst definitely needed followed up and referred me for an ultrasound and blood tests the following week.  

This week, it was back to the Marsden for the third week in a row for a regular dermatologist appointment and to check up on the pesky ovarian cyst.  I have dermatology check ups once a year and normally they are uneventful. This week the dermatologist found a basal cell carcinoma on my back. This is a skin cancer but is the less dangerous more common skin cancer than melanoma. It is also a side effect of the targeted drugs that I am on. The dermatologist removed it immediately there and then with liquid nitrogen, which was a bit painful but over quickly.  It was then onto the ultrasound to check out the ovarian cyst. I felt really anxious about this as I had been having bad dreams and kept thinking I am already dealing with 2 cancers which is bad enough surely there wont be a third as well. Fortunately it was ok and I was told that the cyst looked normal and there was nothing to worry about. I felt so relieved as I left the hospital after what had felt like a very long day. I do have to say the staff at the Marsden as always were amazing looking after me and given that I attend all of these appointments on my own just now they are always caring, reassuring and comforting whilst you are dealing with stressful situations.

Over the summer and early Autumn Team Shomelanoma has been out on more adventures raising funds for melanoma research at The Royal Marsden. In July after being postponed twice it was third time lucky on The Giants Causeway Marathon Hike. We were blessed with amazing weather and had a glorious weekend hiking in Northern Ireland’s stunning Causeway Coast. We missed 3 of our teammates due to COVID including Phil who plans most of our training walks. Both he and Adrian will be hiking 26 miles in early November on the Thames Path. In the meantime planning and discussion has already started for next year’s hiking challenge watch this space if you would like to join us. 

Last month Melissa, Becky and Sarah took part in the Bleinheim Triathlon, they all did fantastically well and we had a fun day supporting them on a beautiful day. The plan is to return next May to take part in this one. If you would like to join us entries open soon and we would love to have you join the team.  My gorgeous friend Jen got her hiking boots on to take on The Chiltern Way 50km in late September and successfully completed it in just over 10 hrs. I love the photo of her at the end of her hike resting her weary legs well done Jen. A couple of weekend’s ago we had the return of The Royal Parks Half marathon, this year without Dave running he will be back next year. Chris and Fraser did a fantastic run on a new course and were both running the race for the 4th time. Unfortunately Steve Baldock who had trained so hard for this race was also struck down by COVID but will be back soon for another half marathon as soon as he is recovered. A special thank you also to Phil Hines parents Margaret and Ken Hines who had their friends and family support Team Shomelanoma fundraising in lieu of gifts for their 90th birthday. Cheers and a huge thank you to everyone who has undertaken a challenge and supported all of the fundraising it is hugely appreciated. We are currently just under £200 away from the £75k,  which is amazing. There will be a full update on the melanoma research in the next blog.

Over the summer we have also been travelling around the UK to catch up with family and friends, which included a lovely trip to Scotland, the Peak District and we have just returned from a gorgeous weekend in Devon. We also felt very fortunate to get away to Lefkada in Greece for a week at the end of September, which was stunning and we just loved every minute. Here are a few pics from the recent trips.

With the green light back on to go and live life to the max, I am back planning more Shomelanoma adventures. It’s 5 years almost to the day since we had the adventure of a lifetime climbing Kilimanjaro in Tanzania with a very special group of friends and since that trip I have really loved going out and taking on all of the different challenges. It has kept me mentally sane (something David is  pleased about) created many happy memories and funny moments, raised a lot of money for two much loved charities the Royal Marsden and Wellchild which are both very special for the wonderful work that they do.

As we approach the winter and get more covered up please remember to do a monthly skin check. The Melanoma UK website has an excellent skincheck guide If you have any changing moles or spot anything you are worried about get it checked out. My motto is always if in doubt get it checked out.

I’ll sign off for now and will be back soon with more Shomelanoma adventures.  

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5 Years with Melanoma, What I’ve Learned and Living every day to the Max

As I passed my 5 year cancerversary on June 16, I am feeling very thankful still to be here and also looking back thinking how naïve I was when I initially received my melanoma diagnosis.  In fact just last month when I was at the Holy Trinity and Christ Church schools presenting to all the children taking part in the Skipathon one of them asked me ”Was I shocked when I was diagnosed” ? When I look back on that now the answer was probably no as I suspected something was wrong with the mole, but what I really didn’t realise was when the Doctor said to me , only 50% will survive 5 years and its not a great diagnosis, I did not appreciate the severity of it all.  Many of you know the story from there or you can read the summary here.

Whilst life changed forever on that day in June 2016, and the melanoma rollercoaster had only just begun, one of the most important things that happened was the plastic surgeon Mr Simon Wood who gave me the bad news that I had melanoma also referred me into The Royal Marsden to see Oncologist Prof Larkin. At the time I really wondered why on earth I was being referred there when my PET and MRI scan had been clear. However he knew that I had a thick 4.5mm melanoma that was ulcerated, I was stage 2C at very high risk of spread and how right he was. This decision got me under the care of one of the best cancer hospitals and melanoma specialists and for that I am forever grateful.

I have learned a lot about melanoma over the last 5 years. Just a few weekends ago I was logged onto the ASCO Cancer Conference – the world’s largest clinical cancer conference.  As it was a virtual event they allowed patients to attend this year.  As you know there has been much progress made in treating melanoma in the last 10 years with both immunotherapy and targeted therapy. However 50 % of advanced melanoma patients don’t respond to immunotherapy and many develop resistance to targeted therapy. The results of the latest clinical trials were presented at the conference and there are some promising new drug trial results. However it takes time to get the drugs through the approval processes plus every country has different funding requirements and many patients just don’t have the luxury of time. We have seen with COVID how quickly vaccines have been developed, approved and rolled out and whilst I realise cancer is a very different disease it is still killing hundreds of patients every day. I just hope that some of the learnings from COVID can be applied to cancer and help get these life saving drug treatments to patients more quickly.

It has been a hard few weeks for many melanoma patients in the support group I am a member of. We continue to lose patients far too young and there are many struggling as the disease advances all too quickly and they run out of options. It is heartbreaking watching all of this unfolding. As I have been approaching my latest set of scans I have found myself having strange dreams and whilst I have been feeling well in myself you just never know what is going on inside. Two weeks ago it was time to go back to Marsden HQ to find out what has been happening with my pesky breast tumour.

As many of you know I had a nervous wait a few months ago when a chest lymph node had popped up on my scans that then turned out to be due to my COVID vaccine so I did feel anxious going to my ultrasound to check if the tamoxifen was doing its job on the breast tumour. I am pleased to say that there is now no evidence of the breast tumour and the tamoxifen is doing its job. My doctor told me you are very responsive to drug treatment, a walking miracle and I left feeling massively relieved to have passed go once again for the next 3 months.

I couldn’t switch off yet as I still had the melanoma scans coming up this week and it was back to my second home last Tuesday for a CT and MRI scan. There were no dramas, it all went smoothly and the RMH radiography team were at their efficient best. I didn’t get much sleep on Thurs eve before going into the hospital on Friday to get my results. I had my best friend Jen’s 50th bday party on Fri eve so I was really hoping it was going to be good news and a double celebration and fortunately it was. Prof Larkin told me my latest scans are clear so its happy days and I can now go and have a good summer. As always a massive thank you to the wonderful team at the Marsden who look after me so well, you are all amazing.

I know that I have been incredibly fortunate to benefit from the advances in melanoma treatment over the past 10 years. But there is still so much more to be done and that is why the fundraising for the melanoma research at the Royal Marsden is so important to continue funding the research and helping the team develop further life saving treatments.

Over the month of May (Melanoma Awareness Month) the Shomelanoma team including the wonderful children of Holy Trinity and Christ Church primary school in Chelsea took part in a month long Skipathon fundraiser raising funds for melanoma research at the Royal Marsden. It has been such a successful and fun fundraiser and I want to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who has taken part so enthusiastically and also generously supported the team.  There were many highlights to the month including bringing together friends and family from across the globe, the sheer enjoyment of seeing everyone skipping every day for a month, the fancy dress Friday which the team embraced and the improvement in skipping skills and tricks. It was getting quite competitive by the end of the month. 

The top highlight for me was the day I spent with the children of Holy Trinity and Christ Church School. I spoke at all of their assemblies sharing my melanoma story, the care I receive at the Royal Marsden, why I am fundraising, the wonderful research they are doing and educating them in sun safety. They asked me lots of intelligent questions and were very engaged. After each of the assemblies I had a skipping session with all of the children. It was such an enjoyable day so lovely to see how much they were all loving the skipping and also to see how engaged they all were in the assemblies. A MASSIVE thank you to Headmistress Mrs Avis Hawkins and also Katie Rose for their incredible fundraising support plus all of the children, parents and carers.  Also for my return to school I did forget to address Avis as Mrs Hawkins, black mark for that one must do better next time.  

One of the parents wrote “Such an amazing inclusive fundraiser, our girls have not stopped skipping all month and are so proud of their new skills. Such an important cause and brilliantly organised. “ I was slightly sad when the month came to an end it has been so much fun. I know that for some they were delighted when May 31 arrived and they could put down the skipping ropes.  We raised £6,382, which is just fantastic so huge thank you once again, and an update on the melanoma research projects the funding is supporting will be featured in the next blog.

Next up is the Giants Causeway Challenge, which is now just 2 weeks away. The team will be hiking 26 miles over the steep undulating coastal path of the Northern Ireland Giants Causeway. We are very much hoping that the weather gods will be kind to us and we wont be having a repeat of the Welsh 3000’s 2 years ago when it rained cats and dogs for 3 days. We will be prepared for all eventualities so look out for a progress update in the next blog and all support for the team is much appreciated.

As we celebrated Jen’s fabulous 50th birthday on Friday eve with her special friends and family, I briefly reflected on the fact that 5 years ago I never thought I would still be here and it really is thanks to the wonderful advances of medical science, a kickass medical team, rockstar husband and amazing friends and family. I have hope and options, it’s still one day at a time enjoy and savor every moment and live every day to the max. I hope to catch up with you soon, wear your factor 50, protect and check your skin regularly and have a wonderful summer. I’ll be back soon with more Shomelanoma adventures.

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Its December 2020 – The Forgotten 2nd Cancer

We have arrived in the final month of 2020 and for many of us I am sure we will be glad to see the back of 2020. What a contrast to Nov/Dec 18/19 when I was fortunate to go on the adventures of a lifetime to Argentina and Peru. I have had the photos pop up for the last month to give me a reminder of those amazing trips. Back in reality the latest national lockdown has ended and we are feeling hopeful about a trip to Scotland to see family over Christmas. But first it is December and back to Marsden HQ.

As some of you may recall 4 years ago I discovered that along with melanoma I also had DCIS (precancerous breast cancer) found in my right breast. As if dealing with one cancer wasn’t bad enough there was also a second to contend with. At the time, I had a horror month of a lot of tests and appointments at different hospitals across London with different doctors and several opinions and the situation only improved after all my medical care was all moved to the Royal Marsden. Shortly after this, the melanoma advanced to stage 4 and the precancerous breast cancer was put on the back burner as the melanoma was treated as high priority.  As my Oncologist explained to me its all about managing risks. Last month I received a reminder to go for a mammogram so it was time to revisit and check up on the forgotten 2nd cancer.  

I had a mammogram 10 days ago and a follow up appointment to review the results. My doctor said the mammogram looked very similar to 4 years ago which I took as positive but there was one area of thickening that they wanted to double check so they were sending me for an MRI, ultrasound and biopsy. I have to admit that I left the hospital with my head in a bit of a tailspin.  As I have been so focused on melanoma for the last 3 years and have felt very fortunate that it has been brought under control and for the last 2 years I have been able to live a fairly normal life with minimal side effects from the drugs I am on.  I was feeling that a Pandora’s box had just been opened and the December factor was about to rear its ugly head.

It just happened that last week, my regular melanoma scans were also scheduled so it was a week of almost daily trips to the Marsden. I had an MRI scan of the chest; this was an uncomfortable experience as you are face down breasts in cones and arms over your head as you go into the scanner.  After lying still in that position for half an hour, I came to the conclusion that this made the brain scan seem relaxing and I never thought I would be saying that. On Wednesday, I had my body CT and MRI of the brain plus blood tests which proved to be a challenge as one of the veins in my arm burst.  Feeling stressed, I left the Marsden and headed off for lunch with my good friend Liz and chatting with her helped to calm me down. It is amazing what a bit of lunch and a cup of tea can do for you so big thank you Liz as by the time I returned to get the blood tests done again in the afternoon it was quick and successful and I was able to head home for the day.

On Friday morning it was back to the hospital for an ultrasound and biopsy of the right breast.  I spoke to the doctor and she told me that the MRI scan of the right breast had shown up 2 very tiny lumps which they were going to biopsy.  On the ultrasound they could only see one of the lumps so they did the biopsy and now I have to wait for the results later this month on to see what happens next. On Friday afternoon I was having my regular clinic appointment with my Oncologist to get my latest melanoma scan results and this was making me feel very nervous. I had a quick walk up and down the Kings Road to calm myself down before returning to the hospital. You are not allowed to have partners with you at the hospital just now due to COVID restrictions so there was no rockstar husband by my side. I just had to put the big girls pants on and get on with it and this is sometimes easier said than done. I took big inspiration from the amazing Bowelbabe who has recently been documenting her latest surgery on social media and thought if she can be getting through this on her own without any fuss then I can get on with getting my scan results.

It was good to see my Oncologist and nurse in person (well masked up)  as consultations have all been over the phone due to COVID. But since I was already in the hospital then it made sense for me to get my scan results in person rather than rushing home to wait for a phone call.  I was delighted to hear that the melanoma CT and MRI scans were good and 3 years on from started my targeted drugs Debrafenib and Trametinib my melanoma is under control and I was told as far as the melanoma is concerned we are in the best place possible. I felt a huge relief that at least it was good news. The other positive is that as both of my Doctors are at the Marsden then they will talk to each other if I do need further treatment following the results of the breast biopsy. I left the hospital feeling in a better mood although I do have to admit my delight was slightly tainted by the fact I have to wait for the results of the biopsy and what happens next.

At this point I have to say a big thank you to the teams at the Royal Marsden. I know that in the time of COVID it has been hugely challenging for staff and patients.  I know I am very fortunate to be treated by such wonderful teams and there is a village of them from the security guards on the door to the receptionists, cleaners, radiologists, pharmacists, nurses and doctors everything has been handled efficiently and quickly so whatever is next I know I am in the best hands and that is hugely reassuring.  

Since the last blog when we were just a week away from the Giants Causeway Challenge like all other events it was postponed to next year. It was disappointing as we had been training hard and were looking forward to it. But next year we will be back onto the challenge cause and raising more funds for the team at the Royal Marsden. If you are interested to join us we have a number of challenges planned for 2021 including a team at the Royal Parks Half Marathon, the Giants Causeway Big Hike in July and the Blenheim Triathlon in September.  If you would like to join us or plan your own challenge please let me know and thank you as always for all of your support.

Last month, the Duke of Cambridge laid the foundation stone to mark the building works of the new Royal Marsden Oak Cancer Centre, which will be a state of the art cancer research facility, based at the hospital in Sutton. The new facility will bring together over 400 researchers under the same roof as patients and clinicians in spaces designed to encourage collaboration and to put patients at the heart of research. The building is due to open in 2022 and you can find out more here.

In addition, I made my first billboard appearance on one of the hoardings going around the building.  I haven’t seen it yet but ones of the girls at the charity kindly sent me a picture. As the saying goes it’s never too late to make it onto a billboard.

In the meantime, I have been out and about staying active and doing some hikes during lockdown to keep myself sane and stay fit and well preparing for the next adventure. Enjoy the run up to Xmas and I’ll be back soon with more Shomelanoma updates.

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Scanxiety in Service Stations and the next Shomelanoma Challenge

On a high in the Peaks

Since escaping lockdown and the lifting of the shielding restrictions, I’ve loved the freedom of catching up with friends and family over the summer. It has passed all too quickly and after a lovely weekend in the Peak District last month to celebrate my mother in laws 75th birthday it was back to awaiting for the latest scan results. I had a new experience going to the Marsden for my latest scans as they took place in the car park.  I understand from the radiographer that the MRI scanner in the car park will be moving into the main hospital building later in the year but actually having it there was good given all the current COVID restrictions. The experience was efficient as ever but part way through the scan I began to need the loo and lying still became an issue for me.  The radiographer stopped the scan and told me I needed to stop wriggling as they had to repeat a section of the scan. I had to hang on a bit longer and then bolted straight to the nearest loo, memo to self always go to the loo in future before scans.

After a gorgeous weekend in the Peaks where I didn’t have much time to think about scan results, it was back in the car on Monday morning for the return to London.  The consultations with my doctor are currently taking place by phone so David suggested we stop for coffee around the time of my appointment. As my appointment time passed and I was anxiously looking at my watch, David said  “you didn’t expect to be called on time did you?”  And yes the clinic was running late so we stopped at a service station and I was feeling anxious.  It wasn’t helped by the fact there was nowhere to have a private call and there were lots of screaming kids in a playground and I kept needing the loo.  However, after the stress came the relief when the phone rang and I was told that my latest scans were all good. My wonder targeted drugs Debrafenib and Trametinib that I have been taking for 2 yrs 9 months are still working and I am feeling well which is amazing.  I left the service station feeling much happier than when I arrived but receiving scan results in service stations definitely won’t become the new normal.

Team Shomelanoma training around Henley

With the sense of relief that my scans are good comes the worry of the resurgence of COVID cases in the UK.  The thought of returning to shielding is just not something I can bear to think about and of more concern is the continued priority focus on COVID at the expense of other serious health conditions including cancer which are becoming part of the collateral damage of this pandemic.  Charities such as CRUK, Macmillan and Maggies are all making huge cuts to their funding which will impact cancer research, support services and end of life care. The reason I am still here alive and kicking is very much due to cancer research. Only 10 years ago the average prognosis for a stage 4 melanoma patient was just 9 months.  If it wasn’t for cancer research and clinical trials I would not still be here today.

The Royal Marsden cancer charity has also been severely affected by the pandemic and fundraising has dropped by 70%. As you are aware, we have been fundraising to support melanoma research at the Royal Marsden and now more than ever with so many fundraising events cancelled due to COVID it is a critical time to support the charity.  In just under 2 weeks Team Shomelanoma will be taking to the epic coastline of the Giants Causeway in Northern Ireland. In this tough one day challenge we will be trekking a marathon distance along  the  undulating terrain of the Giants Causeway ascending over 1000m along this dramatic coastline. The team have been training and we are so excited to get back out there and continue raising funds to support vital melanoma research to continue developing new treatments to save more lives.

Over the last 5 years impressive progress has been made for the treatment of advanced melanoma with the introduction of immunotherapy and targeted treatment and for many patients who respond to these treatments the outlook is much brighter. However much still needs to be done as many patients (50%) don’t respond to immunotherapy and resistance is often developed to targeted therapy.  In the UK alone we still lose 2500 people every year to melanoma.

Despite the COVID 19 pandemic involving a partial closure of trials at The Royal Marsden the hospital is now in progress of getting trials back up and running as quickly as possible. One of the major programmes the melanoma research team is working on is trying to understand which patients with advanced disease will respond to immunotherapy treatment.  Immunotherapy drugs boost the body’s own immune system to attack cancer cells.

Dr Samra Turajilic – the Melanoma Unit’s Consultant Medical Oncolologist. – has found that a particular type of mutation in melanoma patients, called Frame Shift Mutation responds strongly to these kind of immunotherapy drugs. By analysing many different melanoma datasets over the last year, the Unit now have more information about Frame Shift Mutations.  From this information, the team is now developing a more precise way to stratify patients according to how likely they are to benefit from this kind of immunotherapy.

This research has also presented new approaches to information on locating and targeting cancerous cells.  Being able to identify Frame Shift Mutations may also allow researchers to look for and find cancerous cells in the body which are otherwise difficult to locate. This has great implications for the development of new therapy approaches.

Using techniques such as this to study the samples has enabled the team to make novel observations regarding the way that melanoma spreads to other sites in the body. This has shone a light on how these cancerous cells escape the immune system helping to understand why tumour response to immune therapies in melanoma cancer patients is so diverse.

These preliminary findings have already been presented at numerous scientific meetings and ongoing work in this area will significantly advance the Melanoma Unit’s understanding of how cancer evolves and remains undetected in the immune system.

A big thank you to the melanoma research team for providing this update on the melanoma immunotherapy project. Its thanks to your support and generosity that the Melanoma Unit at the Royal Marsden can continue to be at the forefront of melanoma research improving the lives of patients world wide and I feel very fortunate to be treated at such a wonderful hospital.

Team Shomelanoma has been out training for the next challenge in various locations around the UK and here are a few pics. The conclusion this week after a few steep climbs on the SW Coastal Path was that the legs may not have had enough hill training in preparation for the Giants Causeway. With just under 2 weeks to go we are praying that the lashing storms of the Welsh mountains stay away from the Irish Coast but at the end of October in Northern Ireland we will be preparing for all eventualities. A full update on the Giants Causeway Challenge will be provided in the next blog.

Team Shomelanoma training on Devon’s SW Coastal Path

In the meantime thank you as always for all of your generous support it means the world.  This has been a very difficult year for everyone and I hope that you are all staying safe and I’ll be back with more Shomelanoma Adventures soon. 

Stunning views on Devon’s SW Coastal Path
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Escaping Lockdown with Stage 4 Melanoma and Milestone Birthdays


After 100 days of lockdown shielding I was feeling euphoric to leave London for a day of hiking on one of my favourite hikes in the South Downs over the Seven Sisters to Beachy Head. As many of you are aware, I have been in the shielding category, which has been a big challenge. Even though I have been going out more in the past month I was still feeling quite trapped in the city and had major cabin fever after spending so much time at home. The sight of the sea and the cliffs was good for the soul and felt amazing, it was so quiet, and we hardly met anyone on the 20km hike. It was a shame that the pub at Beachy Head was not yet open as that is usually the half-way lunch spot but we stopped near there and had our picnic before heading back. It was a stunning day and I really loved every minute. My legs on the other hand were screaming as they are out of hiking practice; definitely more training required before we take on the next challenge on the Giants Causeway in October.

Next up was my big milestone birthday, on July 12 I turned 50. At the start of the year I was feeling so excited about my birthday as we planned a big party in a gorgeous house we had rented in Kent. The girls were also planning a trip to Ibiza but as the lockdown progressed it became obvious that both the planned party nor the trip to Ibiza was going to be possible with the COVID restrictions so they have been postponed to next year and I’ll be staying 49 for an extra year. I feel quite emotional and grateful to be turning 50. I think before my stage 4 melanoma diagnosis I may have been dreading reaching such a milestone age and worrying about getting older. Now that has all changed, every birthday is to be celebrated, (this one even more than most) as it represents another year that I am still here, healthy, happy and able to make the most of every day with family and friends. I distinctly remember almost 3 years ago to the day being discharged from Marsden HQ after my 3 week inpatient stay after experiencing extreme autoimmune hepatitis from my immunotherapy treatment thinking would I see the next Christmas far less dream of seeing my 50th birthday. So the fact, I am celebrating turning 50, I feel hugely grateful to the fantastic melanoma team led by my Oncologist Prof Larkin and Nurse Nikki Hunter and all the team at the Royal Marsden for continuing to look after me so amazingly well. You are all superstars.

Although the birthday party was postponed, I had a gorgeous bday picnic at Cannizaro House in Wimbledon with family and friends. I was so excited to see everyone as I had been missing them all during lockdown and we had a gorgeous day. I was woken in the morning bright and early with my good friend Denise calling from Hong Kong where David and I used to live. As I was opening my birthday cards, in the middle of the pile were the forms for my blood tests that had been sent from the Marsden. I quickly put them to one side, as I did not need to be thinking about melanoma on my big day. The sun shone and we had lots of fun, I felt very spoiled and after the last 4 months of lockdown it felt that I was finally escaping. The next day David and I escaped to the Pig Hotel in Kent for a couple of days, which was really gorgeous. The hotel had put lots of safety measures in place to protect guests and staff against COVID and it was really lovely to eat out again in a restaurant after so much time at home. We then spent the day walking along the Kent coastline from Bottany Bay to Broadstairs, which was stunning. Here are a few pics. We both returned to London feeling rejuvenated and rested.

By Friday I was back at Marsden HQ for scans, mask on. The hospital was so quiet; I was quickly taken for my MRI and CT scan. Since I was last there in May it is now mandatory to wear masks in the hospital and I did wonder about needing to wear a mask in the MRI scanner along with the face cage, which is already very claustrophobic. Fortunately I was allowed to remove my face mask which was a big relief. As I had such a lovely birthday week and was feeling on a big high (I managed not to think too much about the scan results over the weekend) It was gorgeous weather and we met up with friends Phil and Jo to go hiking which took my mind off the scanxiety. I had also been feeling really well although that can lull you into a false sense of security. On Monday morning I was back at the hospital for results and fortunately the wonder targeted drugs continue to work over 2.5 years on and my melanoma is under control. This was just the best birthday present and a lovely finish to my bday week. I also saw my nurse Nikki which was lovely to catch up with her in person, as I hadn’t seen her since Jan as the consultations have all been taking place by phone. After picking up my drug supply it was off for breakfast with David to celebrate, we were too early for the Ivy café so that will have to wait. I feel very grateful that my treatment has not been disrupted by coronavirus, scans took place as scheduled, and I felt very safe at the hospital.

However the COVID situation has been very worrying for many cancer patients who have had their treatments postponed, scans cancelled and recently CRUK estimates that an additional 35,000 extra deaths could result due to treatments being deferred or cancers going undetected. Deborah James (aka) Bowelbabe a fellow Marsden patient recently presented BBC Panorama “Britain’s Cancer Crisis” which laid bare the impact of coronavirus on NHS cancer care and included some really heartbreaking patient stories.

We have seen this also in the melanoma patient community and this has a significant impact on patient survival. We are seeing too many young lives lost to melanoma tearing families apart. Covid 19 is also having a huge impact on cancer research and just a couple of weeks ago CRUK which is responsible for the funding of over 50% of UK cancer research announced it was making 500 people redundant and £44m cuts to its research.   

The Royal Marsden cancer charity had also been affected and has been running an emergency appeal. I recently wrote a blog for the charity and also spoke to the team in a short video about my experience at the hospital during coronavirus and why it’s so important to continue supporting the charity during this time.

Team Shomelanoma are back training for the next big challenge on the Giants Causeway at end Oct. It has been a shock to the system getting the legs back into hiking action but it has been good to be back out in the Surrey Hills training with the team. Next up we will be off to Scotland to see the family and tackle a couple of munro’s and we have everything crossed that the challenge will be going ahead. More details to come in the next blog.

As the heatwave returns to the UK this weekend we had the news today that Brits are spending 40% more time in the sun during lockdown than they did last year with over a third of us saying they don’t protect their skin in any way in their own outside space. The sun isn’t only strong abroad so please remember to protect your skin slap on the factor 50, stay covered up and out of the midday sun and most importantly don’t get burnt. Early detection saves lives, melanoma cases are on the rise in the UK and we are still losing 7 people every day to the disease. If you do notice any changes get an appointment booked with your GP or Dermatologist.

Thank you as always for all your support and look out for more Shomelanoma adventures coming your way next month.












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Lockdown Life with Stage 4 Cancer


Well what a difference since the last blog update! We have now been in lockdown for 8 weeks and to say there have been ups and downs would be an understatement. Whilst I have become somewhat used to dealing with the emotional rollercoaster of stage 4 cancer, I have found dealing with the restrictions of life imposed by Coronavirus pretty hard. I am one of the 1.5 million people classified as extremely vulnerable which brings with it an additional layer of restrictions known as shielding and involves staying in your house and not leaving for 12 weeks. I contacted my Oncologist for clarification and he told me there was no evidence that the targeted drugs I was on have a major impact on the immune system. However he said anyone with metastatic cancer is unlikely to have a completely normal immune system so the conservative position would be to follow the advice and delay getting the virus as long as possible until they know more about it. I felt on a major downer and so disappointed after hearing this news and the thought of spending 12 weeks not leaving the house just felt awful. I had been feeling so well and the training for the triathlon was just kicking up a gear and now I had to stay locked at home. I knew that the advice was for my own good but being totally honest I didn’t feel vulnerable and in fact felt very fit and well. I just had to take some time to get my head straight and in the correct frame of mind to cope with the situation and take it day by day. I have drawn from my experience of dealing with cancer to help but its fair to say by the end of week 3 I was going stir crazy.


For the first 3 weeks, I followed the stay at home guidelines by not leaving the house at all. I wasn’t sleeping particularly well and with the construction of the NHS Nightingale Hospital in the news, I kept having nightmares I would end up there in East London. I have been doing doing regular workouts in the garden plus yoga/pilates via zoom and we have been very lucky to have good weather. By the end of week 3, I had a really bad dose of cabin fever and so we decided to get up early at 6 am and do a circular walk up to Wimbledon common. At this time it is very quiet, there are a few dog walkers and joggers and it felt so good to be out of the house walking in the fresh air, seeing all of the spring blooms and enjoying the sunrise. Since then David and I have been going for early morning walks twice a week and have ventured a little further by enjoying Richmond Park, which has been truly beautiful, peaceful and very quiet. The sky has been so blue there were no cars or bikes and as we walked into the park the first time, the mist was just lifting and it was stunning. One of the benefits of the pandemic has definitely been the cleaner air, no pollution and the chance for nature to recover. We have even seen more stars in the sky, than at any time over the last 10 years. I have been really missing our hiking as normally at this time of year we are out in the hills training with the hiking gang for the latest challenge. Seeing photos of fields full of oilseed rape and bluebells, it really does make me want to escape London as soon as possible to the countryside. I can’t wait to get back to the hills and mountains of Scotland.


The complete focus on the Coronavirus situation has been especially worrying for cancer patients. Many have had treatments postponed, scans cancelled and analysts estimated that an extra 18,000 people could die from cancer due to treatments being deferred and/or cancers going undetected and/or treated. This is extremely worrying. In addition many clinical trials and cancer research projects have been halted as resources have been diverted to dealing with the virus which will cost further lives in the long term.

The Royal Marsden has been the cancer hub hospital for London. My nurse called me a month or so ago and said they were going to move my scans back a month so that I didn’t need to come into the hospital which I felt fine about but then the appointment confirmation arrived for mid May. At first, I was quite relieved at the prospect of pushing my scans back a month as no one really wants to be visiting a hospital right now, however, I am also acutely aware that the fact I am still here 3 years on from my stage 4 diagnosis is because my melanoma progression has always been picked up early on scans. So last Thursday it was off to Marsden HQ for my CT and MRI scans. It’s a couple of months since I was last in the hospital and during my visit I felt very safe from the security guard on the front entrance checking my appointment letter to the screens that had been put in place at registration, the social distancing in the waiting room to the radiographer with her PPE. The hospital was very quiet as there is currently no visiting, you are not allowed to have anyone with you and most clinic appointments are taking place by phone. As I headed home I was feeling quite calm and tried to forget about the results until Monday morning. Of course by the time Monday arrived I was not feeling so calm, the nerves had kicked in and I spent the morning pacing up and down the lounge waiting for the phone to ring. The current phone consultations make the appointments efficient but I did think how difficult this must be for patients who don’t know their Doctor very well and also its not a good way to receive bad news. Fortunately the phone rang and my doctor told me the news that my latest scans are good and the targeted drugs Debrafenib and Trametinib continue to work 2.5 years on. I felt so delighted and relieved but no trip to the Ivy Café Chelsea to celebrate it was a coffee and cake at home instead.


I am now just longing to be making the most of every day doing all of the things I love seeing family and friends (the zoom calls are ok but just not the same as seeing everyone in person) getting out in the hills with the hiking gang and up to Scotland to see the family and breathe in the fresh air. We had also planned a lovely trip to the South of France for early May, one of my favourite spots in the world where I spent a year at university, but that was of course cancelled. Hopefully we can try and go in the autumn. A girly trip to Ibiza in June has now been moved to next year. Hopefully training for the next challenges will be getting back on track; the hike in Ireland on the Giants Causeway is scheduled for July but we expect that will probably be moved and the triathlon has been moved to September.


It would also be good if the government could clarify what is happening next to the 1.5 million of us who they have advised to shield at home. There are a lot of people on the list with a lot of different underlying health conditions. With the exception of my stage 4 cancer I am currently fit and well (more fit than the average person my age) and I don’t want to be living the next few months trapped in the house. It’s absolutely not good for my mental health and its also hard as lockdown restrictions are lifted for everyone else. I wont enter into the governments handling of coronavirus that’s for another time, lets just say in my last blog I felt the British government slept walk into this crisis and with such a high loss of life in the UK that has turned out to be the case.

As a reminder to everyone May is Melanoma Awareness Month and with COVID 19 dominating the news there has been very little coverage this year. The government have being doing its best at press briefings to encourage the British public to get out and sunbathe but there has been no mention of wearing factor 50, avoiding getting burnt and checking your skin for any abnormalities or changes to moles. Early detection saves lives, melanoma cases are on the rise in the UK and we are still losing 7 people every day to the disease. If you do notice any changes get an appointment booked with your GP or Dermatologist to get it checked out. If you want a tan this summer please fake it, there is nothing healthy about baking yourself in the sun. For more information see Melanoma UK

Here is the link to my patient story with commentary from my Oncologist, which appeared in the latest edition of the Marsden magazine (p12)

I hope you are all well and look forward to seeing everyone soon. I’ll be back next month for more Shomelanoma adventures hopefully out of lockdown.














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Three Years of Stage 4 Melanoma and now Corona Virus

I am approaching the 3-year anniversary of my stage 4 melanoma diagnosis on March 31 and just received good news that my latest scans are fine. I was at the hospital on Thursday and it felt strange as it was much quieter than normal and the radiology staffs were all in very serious mode. This is of course not surprising given that we are in unprecedented times where our amazing frontline NHS staff are being asked not just to do their regular day jobs but also take on dealing with the worst virus pandemic in a generaton. On Friday my Oncologist phoned me to let me know my scans were fine, and he was prescribing 2 months worth of drugs so I didn’t have to go into the hospital for my appointment, as they were trying to limit unnecessary footfall through the hospital. I asked him if my immune system was affected with my current drug regime and he said it was likely to be more compromised than the average person my age without melanoma. I am now being sensible practicing social distancing, stopped going to the gym and swimming but I have still been running outside and my bike is serviced, ready for action. It also makes complete sense where possible for the doctors to be doing consultations by phone/skype to save face-to-face contact for them and their patients. It also provided the benefit of having my usual weekend scanxiety worry awaiting the Monday morning appointment.


However, despite being given the good news of my scan results I found myself becoming increasingly anxious about the corona virus and the fact I am immune compromised. As if there’s not been enough to worry about over the last 3 years with stage 4 cancer now this comes along. I have now recognized what was making the situation worse was social media and listening to the news so I’ll be doing less of that and focusing on finding fun ways of adapting to my situation at home.

I did however pop into the Royal Marsden this week to pick up my 2 months supplies of drugs and have blood tests. The hospital is taking a lot of precautions to keep patients and staff safe. I’ve heard of some patients who are having their treatment cancelled as its too big of a risk for their immune systems right now as they could be at a higher risk of serious complications with the corona virus. This adds additional stress for those already dealing with their cancer diagnosis. The NHS is under such stress right now that resources are also being diverted to other areas.

David and I lived in Hong Kong throughout the SARS epidemic of 2003 when we had home working, social distancing and travel bans to certain locations and there was fear amongst the Hong Kong people. One of David’s abiding memories is of some of the local chinese driving their convertible cars with roofs down but face masks on … We still have friends in Hong Kong and the corona virus hit there in mid January shortly after China. They closed their borders, implemented testing, shut schools and had social distancing very early on and appear to have contained the virus showing a low number of cases and deaths. Many of the other SE Asian countries have been the same. It is currently very distressing to see what is happening in Europe and in my opinion Europe and the UK have slept-walk into the current crisis. I just hope that we are not going to see the UK following Italy in a couple of weeks’ time. It does feel like we are living through a real life disaster movie.


To say how quickly life has changed just 3 weeks ago David and I were on the slopes skiing in Chatel with good friends Jen, Paul and family. We had beautiful weather albeit it was warm skiing in the fresh mountain air. Here are a few pics from the mountains. I did suggest to David the other day that we get a camper van and head north to the Outer Hebrides, however, reading the BBC website today, it appears others have done exactly that and are now likely to be creating a strain on their limited local services and everyone needs to stay at home.  It’s almost 2 years since we had our lovely adventure there and I am now longing to get out of London for some Scottish mountain air. If anyone can bottle it and send some to me please do.

As I mentioned in my last blog next up on the melanoma fundraising for the Royal Marsden is the triathlon. My gorgeous friend Melissa Tarver is signed up to do an Iron Man in Barcelona in July and a group of us are signed up for the Blenheim Palace Triathlon on May 31, albeit like many events, we have been advised this week that it will be postponed and will be rescheduled. On the plus side this gives me more time for training which I need especially for swimming.


It’s hard to believe a little less than 2 weeks ago I was swimming outside on a gorgeous Friday afternoon at Hampton pool. In the meantime I will still be running and cycling and doing Joe Wicks fitness classes in the back garden to keep myself sane and fit. Welcome to the garden gym. David doesn’t think the neighbours are ready for him to join me yet!!


We may need some virtual fun activities over the next few months to keep us entertained and sane and the idea of a virtual danceathon has arisen. Get your pink wigs and legwarmers out.

As we enter this uncertain time more than ever I appreciate the lengths that the Marsden and all NHS staff right now are going to look after patients. This goes from the cleaners to the porters to the nurses and doctors. As they say not all heroes wear capes but they most definitely are all heroes.


Finally my patient story is included in the latest Royal Marsden magazine with a commentary from my Oncologist. I’ll include a link with the next blog In the meantime stay safe, sending lots of love to you all and more shomelanoma adventures coming from home soon.









Mastering the Melanoma Mind Game – Happy 2020

I have been thinking a lot recently about just how much melanoma messes with your mind. This can manifest itself in different ways and set me off on a whole spiral of worry in the last month. The feel good factor I had after the Peruvian holiday quickly disappeared. It had started off in Peru when I woke up one morning after having a very vivid dream (or nightmare) that my fingers needed to be amputated due to the fact my melanoma had returned (all in my dream). In reality, just before Christmas I started to feel a strange pain in my fingers and it was worse when I woke up in the morning. During the day the pain lessened. I checked the side effects of my drugs and joint pains are on the list and I also know from the melanoma support group that some other patients on the same drugs had experienced this too. However the thought that this may be something more sinister was at the back of my mind.

After Xmas the pain was still there in my hand and I also felt that my fingertip was feeling numb. It was two years ago when my gums became numb that led to the early discovery of a small tumour in my brain which was affecting the nerves, therefore my mind was running into overdrive that the fingertip could be related to further nerve damage. I had scans coming up at Marsden HQ so I knew that if there was an issue all would soon be revealed. Last Friday afternoon I was back in Chelsea for my scans. This was not without drama. Every time I go for scans I have a cannula put in my arm so that they can inject the radioactive dye to show up any cancer cells on the scans. As I have no lymph nodes in my left arm this is always done using my right arm. After 3 years of treatment, monthly blood tests and scans every 2 – 3 months the veins in my right arm are not in the best condition and last Friday it took six attempts to find a vein for the cannula to go into my arm. Normally I don’t find this process stressful but on the last two visits it has taken several attempts, making it much more stressful. I think the fact I was already feeling worried made me even more anxious. The radiology team at the Marsden are fantastic, these situations aren’t easy for them either and they do their absolute best to calm you down. I left the hospital with an arm that looked like I had been through a couple of rounds with Mike Tyson.


By Monday morning I was in nervous wreck mode. I actually started to wonder if my dream back in November about the finger needing to be amputated was a premonition (the mind was playing games) of what was to come. David was amazing as ever keeping me occupied and was his usual calm self even as I had convinced myself the melanoma had progressed and the rollercoaster was about to go back up a gear. My scans had been very late on Friday afternoon and my nurse advised that that they were awaiting the radiologist to sign off the CT scan before we could have the appointment. Immediately sensing my rising anxiety levels, my nurse tried to reassure me by saying, “It doesn’t mean anything to worry about” however, it all added to my overall anxiety so the wait felt even longer. By the time I was in the door and sat down being told that my scans were good, I felt like I was about to burst (I probably looked that way too) and it was such an overwhelming sense of relief. I hadn’t felt as bad going into a scan results appointment for a long time and was also exhausted. The pains I was experiencing in my hands were put down to side effects of the drugs or nerve pain and as the week has gone on my fingers have been feeling better. So the mind games did play a big role in how I was feeling in the run up to the latest scans and as other cancer patients will know its hard not to assume that every pain you have is cancer related. I think I am quite in tune with my body and how it is feeling but I was pleased to be proved wrong on this occasion and massively grateful that the targeted drugs I am taking are still keeping my melanoma under control. Of course the happiness that the drugs are still working for me is tempered by the fact that for many patients the targeted drugs that I am on develop resistance and/or immunotherapy doesn’t work for them so they are currently struggling trying to get on drug trials or running out of options. This is why its so important to continue supporting pioneering melanoma research and raising awareness to help prevent melanoma by protecting our skin, doing regular skin checks and getting anything suspicious checked by your GP.


Exercise has helped me with my mental health over the last 3 years and I am now ready to turn my focus to the 2020 challenge and get training for a triathlon. I have signed up for the Blenheim sprint triathlon on May 31 with some friends, which involves swimming 750m, cycling 20km and running 5km. Who knows if I am taking on more than I bargained for, I am not a great swimmer BUT am planning to have a couple of swimming lessons and then practice, practice practice. If you would like to join the Shomelanoma team and join me in the triathlon challenge it’s not too late and I’d love to have you. Full details are here.

Just let me know if you’d like to sign up and I can ensure you are added to the team. My nurse at the Marsden asked David if he would be joining me for this challenge to which he responded absolutely NOT. I’ll keep you posted and entertained with the swimming attempts over the next few months.

There is more to come on this year’s Shomelanoma fundraising challenges and adventures. If you would like to take on your own challenge please get in touch. Wishing you all a happy and healthy 2020 and thanks as ever for all of your support it means the world. As David said on New Years Day Keep searching for your window on the world, above all enjoy yourselves and have fun. Here’s the lovely card my good friend Jen sent me this week, Thanks for listening.